I Dreamed a Dream

This morning I had a dream. I was crossing an old bridge over a large body of water with a big group of friends. As we were crossing the bridge collapsed. At first I thought, oh the water isn't very far, it's okay, we'll just have to swim. But then we kept falling and falling and falling. And we fell faster and faster and faster. I distinctly remember the point at which I knew I was going to die. It's like the moment in the airplane when you're about to land, you can feel how fast you're going, you can see the ground quickly approaching, and you know if anything goes wrong you're toast, so you hold your breath, or grip the hand rests, or close your eyes, or all of the above. I remember the thoughts that ran through my head. The regrets, the sadness for those I was leaving behind, and then peace. I woke up so sad. I died, I said my dying prayers, and I remembered it. I rarely remember my dreams, and even more rarely do I remember them being so vivid. My roommate said that in Ukraine dying in my dreams means that I'm going live for a very long time. Here are some other interpretations of it. "To dream that you are crossing a bridge signifies an important decision or a critical junction in your life. This decision will prove to be a positive change filled with prosperity and wealth in the horizon. Bridges represent a transitional period in your life where you will be moving on to a new stage. If the bridge is over water, then it suggests that your transition will be an emotional one. If you fall off the bridge and into the water, then the dream indicates that you are letting your emotions hold you back and prevent you from moving forward. Alternatively, the bridge may indicate that you are trying to "bridge" or connect two things together. To see a bridge collapse in your dream implies that you have let an important opportunity pass you by." "To dream that you die in your dream symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or your life. You are undergoing a transitional phase and are becoming more enlightened or spiritual. Although such a dream may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm as it is often considered a positive symbol. Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something." I have been trying to change a lot of things within myself lately, so these interpretations seem very promising to me. On another note I have recently had opportunities to deal with situations the way I normally would or to do so as my new self, with maturity and faith. I hope I can continue to be better each and every day. In pondering all of this today I had an enlightening moment. My life flows with the seasons. At first I though it was simply a coincidence, but for years it has been the same. Springtime brings renewed energy and motivation. Lifted spirits and hope. Summertime brings intense challenges(mostly inner) and incredible inner growth, development, and transitioning. Fall (to be determined...haven't really figured it out yet) Winter brings feelings of togetherness and love until Christmas and then hibernation and/or "struggling to stay awake" throughout the rest of the winter months. Winter isn't usually fun for me after the holidays pass. I get the winter blues and am fighting to not be miserable. This last winter I discovered how much vitamins can help. Vitamin D took me from feeling like I was numbly walking through a fog to feeling like myself again, having hope and motivation to do better and be better. I'm looking forward to all the changes that are going to happen in my life over the upcoming year, or two, or three. I love the person I am becoming. I love all of my friends and family and the support and friendship they have offered me, through good times and bad. You are amazing and I love you!